Giving Myself My Voice Back!

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She felt she did not have anything to offer, her world became small. This book is to show her that she had a HUGE impact, that in my world she will always be BIG!

This book is created because I was left with SILENCE and that silence was so loud!

The book is my blanket from the weather. It is still cold, as I need to feel it to heal, but it takes off the chill. It is OK to need help to weather a storm!  This book was created to help me say goodbye and heal or heal others and to show her how loved she was and always will be.  

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For decades, I was a witness to a battle I didn’t realise I was in until it was over. After the “shocking and unexpected” passing of my Mum, I found myself navigating a storm of “anger, guilt and sadness ”. This book is the story of that journey—not her story, but mine.

Written in real-time as the waves of grief hit, my reflections explore the “Two Minds” of a survivor: one side tired of the upset and the ‘Unanswered questions,” and the other side   finding the strength to say, ‘It is OK you lost that battle!” and moving forwards. It is a “handing-back” of upsets never meant to be carried and a honest look as a witness to an illness that “spread like any illness”.

Mental health is not a weakness or a choice, it is an illness like any other illness. I was angry and upset by the illness not her- but it took me time and processing to understand- to change my mindset.

There are no photos or polished edits here—only the voice. It is a journey of “collateral healing,”. There are no edits as I lost my Editor- My Mum.

It is a collection of poems, letters, tips and lessons learnt and writing in real time as the waves hit and jump. It can be harsh at times-but this is directed at the illness not her or anyone else. It is different to anything out there!

“I learnt never to lose your voice. Speak out when you need help… and acknowledge life is hard, but it is worth the hard parts for the great parts. I learnt we need a new understanding of mental health and also the impact on witnesses and their health and life’